FAIL [and a quick recap]

I fail at blogging. I remember thinking that I would be pretty much the best blogger ever and that I would post something at least once a week. And, um... my last post was in March. FAIL.

I've pretty much lived an entire lifetime since then, and I can't believe I've been so selfish as to not even attempt to share that with the world via blog. In the past four months, I've experienced the highest highs and the lowest lows of my life...

I finished the first installment of my BYU career; that in itself is full of blog-worthy material! I went on a road trip to California. I could basically make a whole new blog talking only about the fun I had and the things I learned on that trip. My best friend and I went on a mini-road trip to visit another dear friend who lived in Oregon, and then he got to come up and visit us. I've spent time in Salt Lake City, San Diego, Los Angeles, Seattle, Portland, and so many more amazing and glorious places. Those were some of the best times of my life. HANDS DOWN.

There have also been not-so-amazing moments. I had to sever relationships with people who don't deserve my company; that's never a pleasant experience. I said goodbye to friends (nay, FAMILY) to whom I never thought I'd grow so close. The friends I made at BYU were the best. Better than the best! I don't know what I did to deserve such great friends who loved me more than I could understand at the time. Even harder than saying goodbye to the friends from BYU was saying goodbye to the one friend who encouraged me to get there in the first place. Sending my best friend on a mission was (and in many ways still is) one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, not simply because I miss him but because he's not here to console me, as he has been for the entirety of our relationship. Little by little, that circle of friends that seemed to form itself around me while I wasn't paying attention has started to break apart. I still tear up to think that the soonest we can be together again is in the year 2011; that seems like such an unattainable destination. I can only hope that my life, as well as theirs, will continue to grow and benefit from the time we spent together, and when the time finally comes when we can reunite, we can do so as better versions of the people we were when we first found each other.

Oh my, that turned into a much different post than I originally planned. But I suppose that's a good thing. I guess a blog is much like a lazy poet's excuse for a journal, and I, being the laziest of poets, could definitely benefit from a good blog post or two...

[more to come...]